Well, it's official

[kengr]

I finally got my test results today. I'm diabetic.

I'd already started making adjustments just in case, based on advice from a diabetic friend. Even so, hearing that it's certain rather than "merely" likely makes a difference.

Emotionally, I'm swinging between "Ok, I can deal with this" and the occasional bout of tears.

Comments

[tsjafo.livejournal.com]

*hugs* My Lady Wife has late onset diabetes. It means that she has to be more careful, to take better care of herself, but I'm all for that! Be good to yourself.

[griffen.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetie :(

I am coming on to AIM right now. *snugs*

[ziactrice.livejournal.com]

You _can_ deal with it. I have every faith in your ability, my friend.

[gridlore.livejournal.com]

Oy. Welcome to the world of TL 8 medicine sucks.

You can deal with it, it is just an inconveince that you'll get used to.

[kengr]

Hey, it beats the world of TL *7* medecine.

hang in there

[roosterbear.livejournal.com]

First, *hug*. I imagine you can use lots of those right now.

Emotionally, I'm swinging between "Ok, I can deal with this" and the occasional bout of tears.

Crying is so understandable right now.

I don't have the same problem you have, but from my experience dealing with a chronic condition, you will get used to it, eventually. I mean, to some degree, you'll probably never quite get past wishing you didn't have to poke yourself constantly (if that's involved at this stage) and watching what you eat and when you eat it, and taking the insulin in whatever form you have to take it. But after a while, it gets to be routine.

I never thought I would get used to the bloodwork. I have a really huge phobia of needles, and if someone had told me five years ago 1) that I was going to test HIV+ and have to have bloodwork every few weeks, and 2) that I was going to develop pernicious anemia, and have to have monthy B12 shots, I think I would have said "Just shoot me now and get it over with." And add to that having to be awake at certain hours of the day to gulp down a handful of pills, when it's in my nature to sleep odd hours and to hate alarm clocks, and to have to get used to just not having the same level of energy and endurance that I was used to before discovering both of these conditions, and one might think I would be totally miserable with it all the time.

But I have learned that it's easier to adjust to it than I expected it to be. Sure, there are times it is a terrible cross to bear, when I am borderline having a panic attack at having blood drawn, when I want to be out doing things late at night but I am too loopy from my meds to be able to, but for the most part, I have adjusted to and accomodated my conditions.

It won't happen overnight, of course, and certainly you will likely be a wreck emotionally about it for a while. But hang in there. You'll get thru this.

And have another hug.