Look in the mirror
Sep. 25th, 2019 01:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kengrHave you ever encountered a mirror, especially a full length one, unexpectedly and *really* seen yourself?
Most of the time when we look at a mirror, we are checking details and ignore the "overall" picture.
But when you have that unexpected encounter, you see things without the usual filters. It can be a bit of a shock.
First time it happened to me was in my first apartment. There was a full length mirror in the bathroom and one day after a shower I turned just the right way and saw myself in it. Suddenly, I realized that I wasn't a scrawny kid anymore.
Many years later after a dom friend encouraged me to try cross-dressing, I had it happen a number of times while working for a friend fixing computers. The mens room there had a full length mirror inside the door. You opened the door and there you were. If the lights weren't on, the shadows made it easier to miss that it was a mirror.
One day, I opened that door and saw myself as a woman (in spite of wearing men's clothing at the time). That was another shock/surprise. Had that sort of thing happen several times. Sometimes I saw a guy, sometimes I saw a gal.
So if you ever have one of those moments, go with it.
ps. I understand that some folks with various kinds of dysphoria have something that's pretty much the opposite occur. They look in a mirror and see something that isn't reality but instead something very negative. More or less *all* filter, and bad filters at that.
While not having experienced that, I suspect the way to tell the difference is how you feel about what you see. If it's a surprise, but just "different", it's probably the reality view.
If it makes you feel bad, it's more likely the filters getting carried away.
Most of the time when we look at a mirror, we are checking details and ignore the "overall" picture.
But when you have that unexpected encounter, you see things without the usual filters. It can be a bit of a shock.
First time it happened to me was in my first apartment. There was a full length mirror in the bathroom and one day after a shower I turned just the right way and saw myself in it. Suddenly, I realized that I wasn't a scrawny kid anymore.
Many years later after a dom friend encouraged me to try cross-dressing, I had it happen a number of times while working for a friend fixing computers. The mens room there had a full length mirror inside the door. You opened the door and there you were. If the lights weren't on, the shadows made it easier to miss that it was a mirror.
One day, I opened that door and saw myself as a woman (in spite of wearing men's clothing at the time). That was another shock/surprise. Had that sort of thing happen several times. Sometimes I saw a guy, sometimes I saw a gal.
So if you ever have one of those moments, go with it.
ps. I understand that some folks with various kinds of dysphoria have something that's pretty much the opposite occur. They look in a mirror and see something that isn't reality but instead something very negative. More or less *all* filter, and bad filters at that.
While not having experienced that, I suspect the way to tell the difference is how you feel about what you see. If it's a surprise, but just "different", it's probably the reality view.
If it makes you feel bad, it's more likely the filters getting carried away.
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Date: 2019-09-26 01:32 am (UTC)I avoid mirrors.
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Date: 2019-09-27 10:05 am (UTC)With me it's not "there's something wrong with the image". Instead it's an "oh, that's *me*".
The gender flipping was just my gender identity doing flip-flops (I think)