Going for the long shot since I don't know you quite well: Do you do public speaking? If not, have you considered it? I feel your voice and ideas are strong, and need to be heard. For whatever it's worth, these are the kind of voices that create change.

I am *terrible* at public speaking. And "arguing" things with people is even worse.

I might make an ok essayist, if such were still popular.

But between my abuse issues, PTSD from that and othyer things and my social anxiety/social phobia, public speaking is a *definite* no.

Especially with regards to anything emotionally charged.

I can be rendered mute for all practical purposes in such situations. Old "conditioning". :-(